Where did I go wrong...

Yes, I worry too much about things. That may be the cause of the results that I regret so much but if you worry about not doing much in your life, it'll push you to act, to do something, to travel.
As well, worrying might cause things to end before they really had to. I don't really know what I'm trying to say through this load of shite- I know I am often the cause of my unhappiness and I make my way trying to find something better or a better place, and I keep coming back to where I left off.
I wish it were otherwise but I can't change international law.

I also can't control the way other people feel or give them motivation to meet me half way.

Now I can concentrate on creation once more and devote a lot of time and money on things that will ultimately end up taking space in a portfolio in a cupboard somewhere.
I wish things didn't feel so much like a lost cause.

Oh and I also know that no one reads this.

Feels a bit Ironic writing it down. It's just a rant among many, really.